Sunday, October 30, 2011

Fear and Honesty

So my subject today, the big deal on my mind is book length.  To start, I just want to refer to my new word count for Aeris: 112,000.  I've been writing like crazy and I expect to do even better today, since the hubby took my older son to the Reptile Show and the younger is strapped to my chest via my Moby Wrap. :)
I hope to pass 115,000 this week.  We'll see.  It's been pretty tiring, trying to write, get up 3 times a night, and keep up with a 3 year old, but I'm really motivated to try and get this book out by December.  It will be my birthday present to me.
For those of you keeping track, the book is about 350 pages now.  This is about 100 pages longer than Compis.  Oh, and by the way, IT'S NOT EVEN CLOSE TO BEING FINISHED YET.  I know I've aired my fears about having a super long book this time around, but now that my fears are being realized, I can't help but wonder at the quality of the book I'm producing.
Quality is something I tend to obsess over as a writer.  I know I'm no Steinbeck or George R. R. Martin, but still, I try to be the best I can be, providing clean text, original story line, non-cliche characters, and a readable final product.  I'm sure I'm not the only one out there who feels this way.
But when I sit at my computer, writing word after word after word, and my book gets longer and longer and longer, I have this secret fear.  What if I'm just filling up this book with mush?  What if it's a whole lot of words and not a whole lot of substance?  What if it's a bunch of boring, boring plot points that make no sense to the story and only serve to piss off all the people who said they liked the first book so much?  I was pretty happy with the first part of this second in a series, but part 2 is so much longer than I planned and I just can't see what in the world I would cut out.  Is it possible, my book could end up being *gasp* BORING???
It doesn't help me to think of Paolini, author of Eregon, either.  By the time I got to the third book and the infamous dwarf wedding, I was ready to throw in the towel, send the editor a giant and symbolic red pen, and curse all writers of series.
Usually this blog is addressed to the reader side of me, but today, I must admit to feeling insecure.  I put the question to all of you... how do you feel about your work as you're writing it?  Is it hard to get a great product with a large word count?
I've got to go.  So much to write and so little time.
Happy writing (and reading)!
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